I hav lost it !!!!

I think i hav lost my mind completely. I hav been hit by the baby fever. I jus really want a baby. I am sounding so stupid rite now. I went shopppin the other day and i was actually lookin at baby clothes which by the way were soooooooooooooooo cute! Thats not it, a couple of days bak we went to this family friends place and they hav a son who must be around 6-7 years old. He was so adorable, he was talkin like a grown up, showin me his drawing books and all . I jus completelly feel in in luv with. When the time came to leave i swear i felt like cryin i jus wanted to take him home with me. Everytime i look t a baby i jus feel like tkin them in my arms and gettin them home with me. Wat the hell is wrong with me ??
I jus think maybe thats it u know thats wats i am gonna need to feel complete in life. A baby and a dog is all i am gonna need. Who the hell need a boyfriend or a husband. They jus ruin things anyways. I'll adopt a baby and get a little Labrador puppy who by the way i'll name simba and thats gonna be it i guess.( Ya i know wat u r thinkin no name for the baby but the name for the puppy has already been decided. ).
And this is exactly why i feel i hav lost my mind....

I hav gotten so lazy these days....there's no end to my laziness. I get at up at around 12 in the afternoon and jus laze around the whole day. I can't wait to leave now. Also i hav realized that late nights with certain friends is fun only when we are all drunk. I hav left alcohol indefinetly. (The last time i got drunk i ended up sayin sum really nasty things to this friend of mine and the worse part was i cudn't remember wat i had said. So no alcohol for now -Never say never rite.) Anyways cumin bak to the nite out. All of us decided not 2 drink and so we sat there starin at each other's faces which were pretty blank (normally we crack up silly jokes which in the drunk state we find super funny). And then we ended up havin this serious discussion about sum shit topic which i havnt bothered to remember. Actually i do lil bit, it was sumthing on the lines of guys are like and girls are like that. So basically wat was supposed to be a fun nite turned out to be super boring. Man growing up and being responsible sux !!

I think i hav had a good life so far (touchwood). I have met sum amazin people and hav made sum amazin friends. People hav been really sweet and nice to me and i want to remember these things forever specially when i am down..

The sweetest thing sum1's ever told me- My friend Puneet once told me " I guy wud hav to be a complete fool not to want to be with u" . It was a typical sooooooooo sweet moment.

The sweetest thing sum1's ever done for me- There r so many where do i even start

1. My baby sis got this fake diamond set for me when she went for a trip in school. She must hav been like 11-12 then.
2. When i was movin to States my best friend came and stayed with me for like a week and she finally left the nite i was suppose to leave , i was crying like a baby. But her entire family came to meet me a couple of hours later and i was soo happy to see them all.
3. When i quit my job and just had week left at work my colleagues were like super nice to me. They made me fell super special even though we hadn't worked together for a very long time. Infact on my last day we all went out and they got me a cake and presents i was soo happy. Thinkin abt them always gets a smile on my face.

There are so many more but these are the ones i really like thinkin abt.

29/06/08

I don't know abt u but God sure listens to me. I wanted a lil baby in my house and guess wat god gave me one. My Bhabi had an adorable lil baby boy 2day. And he wasnt even due yet. So i am a bua now:-)