NOT a High School Musical....

So this friend of mine said that my last blog made him kinda sad which is the last thing he needs rite now. So I am gonna try to make sure this one isn’t. But I am warning u this blog mite sound like its cum rite out of sum High School movie and honestly I wish this was sum High school movie and not my life! Sumtimes I feel everything thats happens to me is like stuff rite out of a movie, I mean I am filmy but seriously God. Ok now back to the story...

So I live in this super cute town (I’ll upload pics on my Photography blog) like 20 mins from New York and its close to two major Universities around. We mostly have Spanish families and students livin around here .... So a couple of months back (Yes we are gonna go in flashback again) I attended an event for Indian Students at the university my roommates study in. Ok I have to be honest here I went cos of all the food we’d get for $ 5. So we are standing in line for the buffet and all of a sudden I realize too many people are looking at me. You know that feeling that every1’s starin at you all at once. Ok so this is sumthin that my brother told me -that all Indian guys in the US are super desperate, as soon as a new girl cums around they all just pounce cos the girls are kinda out numbered by the guys. So anyways we hav our dinner and then there’s a DJ. Ok I don’t want to brag but I’d say I am a pretty decent dancer. ……So anyways this kinda Geeky friend (no offense to any1, hell I am a geek myself) of my roommates who I had met b4 cums up to me and tells me that his friends keep telling him he’s such a loser he’ll never get a girl. I kinda felt bad for the guy so well when he asked me to dance with him I said SURE. Anyways long story short we danced the night away and the next thing u know this guy is getting favors from a ton a guys who wanna find out who the hell was the girl in the denim jacket. We have been hanging out since then and he’s a good friend now. I just found out this guys has been using all the footage he’s been gettin do to wat not and putin up pics of us together on social networkin sites which by the way is very creepy if I mite add. I on the other hand was completely unaware of this situation and wud end up doin the friendly flirty thing with him all in jest ok just to make him feel good about himself. Which I am now realizing this kid took seriously AND (yes there's an and) he had also planned to take me around the university with him when he stood for sum student body election (ya like my presence can get u votes). I really don’t wanna hurt this kid, its not like I have a zillion friends here. But this entire episode has made things awkward. I am too old for all this I really I am …also been there done that. I don’t wanna deal with stuff like this rite now. I am 25 on the verge of gettin married….. I don't need all this High school crap......if that wasn't enuf I hav been invited to weird college parties cos apparently my presence will ensure it’s a hit. Pls tell me this is a joke! I even went to one before I realized wat the hell is happening.... I am seriously too old for all this childishness…for the luv of God I hav grey hair and wrinkles now, its soo not gonna happen. I know he’s a good kid and he just got carried away and maybe sum where I am to be blamed as well but I hav no clue how to deal with this & get things bak to normal again.

I read this sumwhere today and I felt like I had to share it..

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."

Ok so this super cool thing has happened and I am dyin to share it with people cos things like these don't happen often, atleast not to me. So my company is sending me to take these classes organized by Google on Google Analytics. I know its a super geeky thing to say but FINALLY my dream of studin in the US is gonna be a reality. And I know nobody really cares but I am super excited about this!!!! SO the hell with u all;-P

By the way I just wanna let u know that facebook is the new Shaadi.com.....just the other day my dad asked me to accept sum1's friend request and change my profile picture.....LOL!!!!!

My baby guddu's cumin this weekend and I am ecstatic, I feel joy in the purest form:)

I have planned tons of things for her, I want this to be the best month of her life. And I am feelin sad already thinkin that she'll leave in the end...Ok thats it for now, kinda exhausted. I miss Neha:(

The best days of my life:)

This blog has been long overdue and if I don't write it now I am not sure I ever will...

So like 6 months back I was desperately lookin for a place to live. I was so desperate at that point that I would hav agreed to live under sum1's staircase If I had to...I was goin to see apartments like everyday and cos I was jobless alota people were kinda rejecting me, I guess they must be thinkin wud she be able to pay the rent. So anyways I was on the verge of givin up when I got this call from this female who was leavin her apartment and was lookin for a replacement. I was soo desperate I went to see her place the next day itself at like 7 am in the morning. The place was a lot better than the last apartment I had seen which by the way was a weird room with a red rug and ya not to mention the bathroom and the kitchen of that place were on a different floor all together. I immediately agreed and I din't even bother to ask about the people I'd be livin with cos at that point of time that din't really matter. And then I moved inn...and by gods grace met these two awesome roomates who have literally been the most supportive people I have ever met. I think we just hit it off rite at the start. I had been livin alone the last couple of months and I was dyin to talk to sum1 and they were glad to hav sum1 to provide background music to every situation (cos I literally do have a song for every situation). When I moved into the apartment I am not kidding but my two bags of clothes was all I had oh yaa and two chairs which I found in the trash (don't judge me ok desperate times call for desperate measures)- no utensils, no bed, no pillows, no nuthin basically...

And these guys literally gave me everythin from the sleeping bag I use today to the hangers I use to hang my clothes, the bedsheet that I sleep on to the plates I use to eat. And they din't even know me. My birthday was about a month after I moved in and these guys actually threw me a surprise bday party (the one where the cops showed up if I mite add)-honestly wasn't expectin it cos I barely knew them. People I have known my entire life havn't even given me a surprise bday party. We still have the decorations on our walls, I din't allow them to remove any ;-P Oh god and I have to mention my aweful cooking skills which hav goten tolerable over the last couple of months thanks to them- So I am a sardarni who cooks roties like a gujju and sabzies like a Maharashtrian. When u live in the same house u r bound to have arguments and wat not but I am always going to be grateful to them cos they took me in when I had nuthin and they supported me thru the whole being jobless and frustrated phase.....and man we have made sum memories over the last couple of months. From doin our own version of a pest control in our bug infested apartment to fighting with the landlord for our deposit we have done it all. Every month we go to this town like two stations away to get our groceries with a shopping cart and then the way back is where all the energy we gain from the food we ate the month b4 is utilised when we have to drag that deadly food cart exploding with vegetables and wat not back home, I remember this one one time the cart's wheel got stuk and it fell and well I fell on top it, it was soo freakin hilarious. Then there was this time when we ran out of atta and ate rice for like 2 weeks every single day b4 we ran out of that as well and started eatin maida & besan roties. This finally got to me and I went to the grocery store and dragged a 20 lb bag of atta on my own (yes it was a big achievement and also the reason why I have super strong arms now). Oh yes and how can I forget the New Year at Time Square where we went to see the ball drop only when we reached there, there was no sign of any god damn ball, we were freezin our asses off but we did manage to catch a bunch of Iskon Temple disciples singing "Hare Krishna" needless to mention we joined them and thats how we celebrated New Year 2010...lol! And how can I forget the night I corrupted them all, so my roommates are the most sudhra hua bunch of people u'll ever meet and I decided that I'll have to be the one to introduce them to alcohol. So we got these small bottles of vodka and decided to get a lil drunk. Me being the pro gave the bachha party sum and said it was enuf for them. They weren't gonna take that and b4 we knew it the vodka was over and they felt they weren't gettin that drunk feelin so at 2 pm in the night these two girls decided to go to the Liquor store (which was like two house away from our old house) and get tequila shots ....they'd seen people have those in movies, kids I tell u....lol! Soo as soon as they got home they started feelin drunk cos well vodka take time to hit and all of us started cryin for sum weird reason. And this one roomate of ours who din't even drink at all actually started cryin as well.....LOL! I guess she was feelin left out;-P We all got up with the worse hangover ever and we still have that box of Vodka they got that night, we havn't been able to finish it yet even after 5 months....these are sum awesome memories with sum awesome people which I hope will last me a lifetime:)

Random Thoughts

So I have been tryin to dodge the marriage bullet for sumtime now......I mean why do I hav 2 do this. I am not ready to grow up yet and think about savings, kids, in-laws, contraceptives, blah blah ...... I am just a kid, atleast in my head I am. I see people around me in relationships- ya ok so they don't ever have to got to the mall by themselves but they are struggling to make time to hang out with their friends, siblings, or just to pamper themselves. I am not done pamperin myself or my siblings yet. When I went to visit my friend last weekend she said -I hav never seen u happier, u havn't stopped smiling since u set foot in my house.......and it was such an aww moment cos it meant a lot cumin from her well since she's seen me all frustrated cos of a lota stuff in life, wat if marriage ends up ruin this:(....So I was wondering when can a female stop callin herself a girl. I mean I am 25 now...am I a girl or do I now fall in the women category??? Someone said its an age thing, my roomate said once ur a mom ur a women and well another friend of mine said that once ur married ur a women....I am not really convinced with any of these answers so if u hav a better answer then lemme know......I want to believe I am a girl until my weight stays within the 45 to 55 kg range:-P

Anyways back to the marriage thing- WHY GOD WHY ME????

I mean I am not a -think about the Future person, this F word is forbidden in my head it freaks me out and leads to anxiety attacks;-P. If I had to make a list of the weirdos my parents have been sendin my way, well lets just say it wud a very funny list........ok so here's the deal I know I am in denial but its time to cum out now. SO here it is- I am Commitment Phobic. My way of life and my choice of men clearly reflects this. And its not thats I can't dodge this marriage thing anymore cos trust me I can its just that its not fair to my folks.....so how the hell do I get over this fear of being suffocated in a relationship????? When I think of relationships I think of a closed room without any windows...this is soo not good;-( I dunno why I feel like once u get married u don't have fun in life anymore, and I have had my share of fun and I shud be like I am over that phase but the thing is I am not. I have given my parents every shitty excuse possible to avoid this but now I hav to put a stop to this, I just have to..... so anyways was arguing with my mom over the phone the other nite (yes moms don't care if u are in another continent, they'll hunt u down to pester you) and well guess who showed up AGAIN!!! I swear if this happens one more time I am soo gonna be writin my next blog from a jail cell....

SO for those of u wonderin man she has been bloggin a lot lately well -the last month has been seriously crappy, I hav been workin my ass off, I didn't get the raise I was expecting, not been gettin along with sum people at work, my Guddu's havin her exams, I hav been missin my friends like crazy and well I have already spent way too much money on ISD calls;(