Cheers to new beginnings!!

Hello people so it was my bday yesterday.......thank u very much for all your wishes!!!
There's jus soooooooooooo much i wanna write but can't hav my exams goin on ( ya had an exam on my bday u'd think its such a bummer but don't worry i had a blast anyways). Also b4 i 4get wanna mention that i looked gorgeous.......screw modesty man.
So will continue this blog later.
Till then see ya :-)

22/11/08

No my exams aren't over but i hav a week's break in between 4 the remaining two. Now gettin bak 2 my bday. Well the thing is there were two sides 2 it the planned one and the unplanned one. I had my exam, so obviously i was studin for the 1st 12 hours of my bday. Infact i didn't sleep at all tat night- 1st cos of all the calls i was gettin and then i got so nervous abt my exam. See it being my bday and all i was under a lota pressure...i really wanted the exam 2 go well cos i din't wanna start my bday with a bad exam. But obviously that didn't happen cos i was soooooooo sleepy durin my exam i don't even remember if i wrote anything seriously it was one of my worse exams since my MBA has started. Anyways a friend of mine was throwin a party for me at her place so i was super excited abt that the whole day. After my exam I jus really wanted 2 sleep but when i got home my sis had made plans to go for a movie- we watched Dostana. I hav 2 admit i had thought that i'd just sleep throughout the movie cos i was dead tired but the movie was sooooooooooooooo hilarious that i jus didn't feel like it even 4 a sec. Infact me and my sis were laughin out so loud ( we hav a really weired laughter ) that the people sittin behind us told us a couple of times to stop it cos they couldin hear the dialogues. This was definitely the most fun part of my bday. And i hav to admit i just luved the movie ( hav already seen it twice and hav even bought the dvd...lol!). You know wat i really luv about bdays are the calls u get from people.... even those who u hav barely been in touch with. It makes u feel so damn special. I wish my bday was like atleast 2-3 times a year. Infact i'd luv it if that happened. Ok so the thing is by the time we got to the party i was suuuuuper exhausted and also kinda bummed cos my best friend called and said she wont be able 2 make it. But then this friend of mine got me the most beautiful flowers ever and it just cheered me up in a jiffy ( only for a lil while though). So we did the whole gifts thing, cut a cake ( actually cut two) and took sum amazin pix. Now i hav 2 add here I was lookin really nice and the credit 4 that goes 2 my baby sis who gave me my entire bday outfit right from the shoes to the clothes. It was even a bigger deal cos she's such a spendthrift but she managed to save quite a lota money 4 my bday. I even managed to get a lil drunk. By this time it had been more than 34 hours since i last slept and i cud barely open my eyes so instead of goin clubbin as planned with my friends i jus came home and FINALLY SLEPT!!

I think the best part of my bday was the movie with my baby and the picture takin session and well the plans they didn't materialize at all.....moral of the story its the unplanned stuff that happens in your life that u enjoy the most.

Also i think overall this last year was really amazin i grew up by leaps and bounds. I won't deny i had my lows but when i look bak its the fun times that i really remember. I just wanna thank God for the amazin year and everything that it had to offer. I just hope the year ahead is even better and God's alway by my side like he has been.

Rest in peace Pabhiji

My grandmother passed away yesterday. And i am just feelin really low. I am not sure why......I was not really close to her. Infact as a child i thot that she didn't like me. I don't know why i am so mad rite now. I think a part of me just feels that maybe i shud hav atleast made an effort to hav a relationship with her. I think i always thot i will sumday in the future and now there is no future. Also the fact that i didn't really visit her much in her last days has filled me with immense guilt. I think i am sad not because she passed away it think its more because of the way she died. God i wudn't wish a death like this to my worse enemy. She was suffering soo much, she wud just keep screaming and cursing cos of the immense pain. In the end i think every1 was just waiting for her to die. Honestly i didn't think that , not even when i went to see her on her last day. But that changed a couple of hours later when the doctor told us that she had very lil time left. All of us surrounded her on her bed. And everybody just kept askin has she left us yet. Thats when i wished and i prayed and called my daarji ( my grandad who left us 10 yrs bak) to just take her now. I saw her breathe her last breath. I did cry when they took her for cremation but then i am a cry baby so thats kinda given. But it was because i realised wat had becum of her. God just pls don't let any1 die like this ever again. I read this in the paper today and it just made so much sense-

" Life neither begins nor ends anywhere. It's eternal. Wat we call life is just an association with a certain body. And wat we call death is nothing but getting out of the body and that concept. Life is never ending; death is just a part of it. Actually death is a process of continuous revival. a means of resurrection!"