I am back from another vacation. I know u must be thinkin she's on vacation all the time well wat can i say i guess i hav been travellin a lot this year . Anyways the long weekend gave me a chance to visit Ahemadabad. But this trip was for educational purposes. I had always wanted to experience student life in a hostel. So when i got the opportunity to go to MICA for a couple of days i just cudn't let it go...
I must say the city of Ahemadabad is full of temples and mosques. I always prefer to explore a city on foot and thats exactly wat i tried to do but my classmates were not really into the whole walking thing. When we reached Ahemadabad we were told that "its been raining here for the past four days" but during my stay there it didn't even rain once and it got really hot and humid. Hell the tan that i got is worse than the one i had when i got bak from Goa. The old and the new city are connected by various bridges. The old city is really crowded while the new city is more quite and cleaner. I actually really liked the new city cos that's where we were staying and if it wasn't for my not so gr8 experience on my last day in Ahemadabad I wud hav luved the place even more. I must say i felt kinda ignorant cos i wasn't really expecting the infrastructure there to be as developed as it turned out. Even the people out there were pretty modern and i luved the fact that it was a safe place for girls so that they cud stay out late.
People in Ahemadabad luv food. Every nook and corner of the city has a restaurant or a food stall. And the food there is pretty cheap as compared to what we get in Mumbai. I must say i didn't find a single empty restaurant out there. I saw so much food in Ahemadabad that by the time we came bak i cud just puke at the sight of food. And they put soooo much shudya ghee in everything baap re! No wonder most gujju's are fat. I visited the Akshyadham temple in Gandhinagar and i jus fell in luv with the place. U can actually spend a whole day there but i didn't hav enough time so i missed the exhibitions. Now i can't wait to see the one in Delhi. One of my favorite places in Ahemadabad was the Hatheesingh temple. There we 50 small temples inside this one temple.
I know i am gonna sound like a geek but i hav to say that my most fav place in Ahemadabad was IIM A. I went there with 2 of my classmates and all three of us were in awe of that place man. The library there was soo bloody huge. I had this huge smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach the whole time i was there. I don't know just visitin a place like that makes u feel like man there is so much i hav yet to accomplish in life.
On the day we were supposed to leave a curfew was declared in the city. There were sum shoot outs in the old city and unfortunately for us were were visitin a mosque there. The situation was really chaotic and again it made me feel how unsafe our country has gotten.
This trip also gave me the chance to interact with students from different MBA colleges from all over the country and one thing that it made me realize was that just because sumbody is from an IIM or an ISB doesn't mean that they are smarter or better than us. Infact i was kinda let down, i kinda expected students from these institutes to be super smart with amazin ideas and presentation skills. Also i met a couple of really sweet guys, u know the bhola bhala kind who are sho sweet and innocent. I didn't think people like those still existed. Atleast they don't in Mumbai. I think this city makes people ruthless. People don't care about anybody here. I mean how many time have u walked past a man lying on the road or the station platform without even giving it a 2nd thot. Countless i am guessing. And i am not blaming u, hell i am one of them....
I miss being in a relationship sumtimes. I miss havin sum1 to talk 2 when i get bak home really late and exhausted. I think what i miss the most is being able to say i luv u b4 i go to sleep. Its so liberating when u can express yourself freely. I think i miss that. But i doubt i'll even be able to do that again. I think i am gonna be supper hesitant about expressin myself in the future. Do u ever feel like u were a better person when i u were younger? i do all the time. You know that innocence and the purity of heart and a clear conscious, i don't think i have it in me any more. Sumtimes i look bak at the things i did in the past and wonder how i had the heart to do them. I don't think i hav that feelin of unconditional love for people around me either. In case u r wondering wat happened to me? Life did.
I try everyday to be a better human being but sumhow it just doesn't feel good enough.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I am in luv again....and this time its not a guy but a city!!
Finally i get the time to write!! Life's been super busy the last couple of days and this is all thanks to my extended holiday. Ended up missin college cos of it and then when i got bak i was flooded with work. There is soooooooooooo much to write. If u think my blogs are long wait till u read this one cos its gonna be super long. So here it goes....
I wanna start with what happened yesterday. It was jus another one of those days when i had a presentation and like always my team members were slackers so i ended up doin eveythin from the ppt to the soft copy and even the presentation ( One person was supposed to represent the whole teams and guess who was chosen well daa ME!). But the only difference was that this presentation was in front of the whole MBA batch ..which meant a huge crowd. Anyways i did my homework well as always and finally when i went up there i kinda felt realllllllllly nervous for the 1st minute or so but then it went well kinda OK. So after the presentation got over the Prof. gave us his feedback. And then everythin that happenned is kind of a blurr ...he said sum really gr8 things about how i did the presentation, he said sumthing about my voice and my confidence. Don't really remember much all i remember is i had a huge smile on my face and every1 was clapping and it felt gr8. I give my all to almost all my presentations and finally it felt like i was gettin my dues, it was one of the best feelings ever. This is gonna be a day i'll probably remember always!!!!!!
Ok next on my agenda is my Professor Dr. H.S.Cheema. Well he resigned and left our coll a couple of days bak. And this part of the blog is dedicated to him. Cheema Sir or Cheemu was not really that good at the teachin stuff but thats cos he had other stuff to take care of. He was the Soul behind our College festival and i still remember last year the audi was soo packed that there was no room to even stand and every student out there was yellin Cheema rocks ( and most of them weren't even from our college).Basically Cheema Sir bought the entertainment factor, he was the person we cud go to when we had any problem whatsoever. He literally was like a father figure thats why many of us lovingly called him Cheema Papa ( which is so ironic cos in coll Cheema Sir had 120 students callin him papa but at home there's none cos Cheema sir has no kids of his own). I guess thats the reason he luved us like we were his own. When Cheema Sir saw Chak De he was so inspired that he organised a case study discussion on it and called the press and media for it ( I was chosen to be a part of the case study by Cheemu) And he even got the movie's CD to college and watched it with us. Infact the punch line for our fest last year was CHAK DE MUMBAI!!!!! Hell he even walked the ramp with us in the fashion show. He specially went and bought a leather jacket for it. Thats our Cheema Papa for u a darling human being without whom its hard to imagine how our coll. We organized a farewell for Cheemu and trust me most of us had tears in our eyes along with Cheemu himself. We cudn't really undersderstand why he was leavin. The next day he organized a farewell for us where he treated 120 students to chinese food and personally wrote cards for each one of us andegave them out himself ( I din't go cos it made me too sad). Cheema Sir we luv u and trust me when i say u'll always be the 1st person i'll remember when i think of this college.
Ok so now about my holiday. We'll i hav gone to the US a no. of times and this was definetly better than all my other trips there, expect for the last few days of my trip which were well not that good. There are 2 sides to this trip well 1. I felt a dissconnect with sumone i luv 2. I connected with sum1 i hav always luved and never got the chance to spend time with. Seattle by the way is so beautiful that i jus fell in luv with that city and honestly i can't wait to back. I was stayin there at my maasi's place and she lived in the suburbs. We cud actually see the snow clad mountains from her place. And the air was so pure and fresh sumthin we don't get in Mumbai anymore. I am a photography freak and trust me when i say this the place was a photographer's paradise cos the place was so beautiful that i din't even hav to try to take good pic. I must have taken more than 700 pics in the 20 days that i was there. For sumtime now even before my trip i have been thinkin whether i want to stay in Mumbai for the rest of my life and whether this is the kinda place i wanna raise my kids in. Don't get my wrong i luv Mumbai but its just there soo much of traffic, pollution and actually so much of everythin man..and most of all i question our safety here these days. The other days i was at the station at around 9.30 pm and there were more than 20 policemen out there lookin for sumthim. And the day before that i was goin by bus and the police stopped my bus and searched the belongings of a lota ppl and trust me it was scary. Infact there was this old Muslim guy with a cap on his head and they checked his belongings inside out. Ok maybe i am exaggerating a little but the point is are we safe here!! I don't know maybe i am over reacting but u know how i always felt that Mumbai is where i wud wanna live always i jus don't feel that anymore. I seriously don't know where i wanna be and wht i wanna do. Anyways back to the trip the reason i really wanted to go for this trip was cos i'd get to see my brother. See but the thing is things don't always go the way we expect them to. I felt such a disconnect with him that i can't even tell u. I don't know maybe distance plays its part and affects every relationship. But he was bondin well with my sis it was jus me. I was so frustrated i jus didn't know how to reach out to him. And he was with us only for 4 days. I think on the last day i jus gave up. I jus kept cryin the whole time on the day he was leavin. And honestly it was not cos he was leavin i hav gotten use to life without him now it was cos i cudn't believe we had grown apart so much....
The good part of this trip was i got to spend time with my maasi. I think i hav always had a special bond with her. I have always been her favorite. infact when she gave gave sum attention to my sis i kinda felt a lil jealous. She's the one who gave me my name and she the only person on this planet who calls me Simu. Jus the way she says Simu makes me feel luved. She's the most easy goin person i hav ever known. She's always had health problems but when u meet her trust me when i say this u'd think she the happiest person on this planet. I think its cos of her health problems that she appreciates life better than any of us. She's also very easy to talk to infact sumtimes i wish my own mother was more like her. Though she was not keepin well when we visited he she tried to show us around as much as she cud. A couple of days after i got back i felt really low. I got this feelin that sumthin was wrong with sum1 i luv and jus cudn't stop cryin ( i cry at the drop of a hat, i can be super sensitive sumtimes). Initially i felt maybe i was my hormones that were at it again but the feelin jus grew stronger. I had one of the most restless nights i hav ever had and the next morning we got a call from maasi. The doctors said she might hav Leukemia. She has 2 small kids yaar how can God do this. Initially i was really mad at God but now i have a feelin that everythings gonna be alrite..
By the way i hav started eating non veg again. Basically i had this wish and i thought i am gonna start once it comes true and after three long years it almost has ( I know this sounds so stupid ). But now eatin non veg makes me feel guilty now so i think i am gonna stop eatin it again. Also one of my really good friends has fallen for my best friend and now everythings a mess. Cos ever since he's told her they hav been fighting and i am stuck in between. And considering the lack of time in my life i just don't hav the time to sort things out between them. Trust me people if there's anything i hav learned from my own experience and those of people around me never date or even fal for a good friend if u want that person to always be a part of your life. Cos if there's even a 0.0001 % chance of it not workin out then its not worth loosin a friend.
Ok ppl so long for now gotta get bak to work, until next time Aasta Lavesta baby!!
I wanna start with what happened yesterday. It was jus another one of those days when i had a presentation and like always my team members were slackers so i ended up doin eveythin from the ppt to the soft copy and even the presentation ( One person was supposed to represent the whole teams and guess who was chosen well daa ME!). But the only difference was that this presentation was in front of the whole MBA batch ..which meant a huge crowd. Anyways i did my homework well as always and finally when i went up there i kinda felt realllllllllly nervous for the 1st minute or so but then it went well kinda OK. So after the presentation got over the Prof. gave us his feedback. And then everythin that happenned is kind of a blurr ...he said sum really gr8 things about how i did the presentation, he said sumthing about my voice and my confidence. Don't really remember much all i remember is i had a huge smile on my face and every1 was clapping and it felt gr8. I give my all to almost all my presentations and finally it felt like i was gettin my dues, it was one of the best feelings ever. This is gonna be a day i'll probably remember always!!!!!!
Ok next on my agenda is my Professor Dr. H.S.Cheema. Well he resigned and left our coll a couple of days bak. And this part of the blog is dedicated to him. Cheema Sir or Cheemu was not really that good at the teachin stuff but thats cos he had other stuff to take care of. He was the Soul behind our College festival and i still remember last year the audi was soo packed that there was no room to even stand and every student out there was yellin Cheema rocks ( and most of them weren't even from our college).Basically Cheema Sir bought the entertainment factor, he was the person we cud go to when we had any problem whatsoever. He literally was like a father figure thats why many of us lovingly called him Cheema Papa ( which is so ironic cos in coll Cheema Sir had 120 students callin him papa but at home there's none cos Cheema sir has no kids of his own). I guess thats the reason he luved us like we were his own. When Cheema Sir saw Chak De he was so inspired that he organised a case study discussion on it and called the press and media for it ( I was chosen to be a part of the case study by Cheemu) And he even got the movie's CD to college and watched it with us. Infact the punch line for our fest last year was CHAK DE MUMBAI!!!!! Hell he even walked the ramp with us in the fashion show. He specially went and bought a leather jacket for it. Thats our Cheema Papa for u a darling human being without whom its hard to imagine how our coll. We organized a farewell for Cheemu and trust me most of us had tears in our eyes along with Cheemu himself. We cudn't really undersderstand why he was leavin. The next day he organized a farewell for us where he treated 120 students to chinese food and personally wrote cards for each one of us andegave them out himself ( I din't go cos it made me too sad). Cheema Sir we luv u and trust me when i say u'll always be the 1st person i'll remember when i think of this college.
Ok so now about my holiday. We'll i hav gone to the US a no. of times and this was definetly better than all my other trips there, expect for the last few days of my trip which were well not that good. There are 2 sides to this trip well 1. I felt a dissconnect with sumone i luv 2. I connected with sum1 i hav always luved and never got the chance to spend time with. Seattle by the way is so beautiful that i jus fell in luv with that city and honestly i can't wait to back. I was stayin there at my maasi's place and she lived in the suburbs. We cud actually see the snow clad mountains from her place. And the air was so pure and fresh sumthin we don't get in Mumbai anymore. I am a photography freak and trust me when i say this the place was a photographer's paradise cos the place was so beautiful that i din't even hav to try to take good pic. I must have taken more than 700 pics in the 20 days that i was there. For sumtime now even before my trip i have been thinkin whether i want to stay in Mumbai for the rest of my life and whether this is the kinda place i wanna raise my kids in. Don't get my wrong i luv Mumbai but its just there soo much of traffic, pollution and actually so much of everythin man..and most of all i question our safety here these days. The other days i was at the station at around 9.30 pm and there were more than 20 policemen out there lookin for sumthim. And the day before that i was goin by bus and the police stopped my bus and searched the belongings of a lota ppl and trust me it was scary. Infact there was this old Muslim guy with a cap on his head and they checked his belongings inside out. Ok maybe i am exaggerating a little but the point is are we safe here!! I don't know maybe i am over reacting but u know how i always felt that Mumbai is where i wud wanna live always i jus don't feel that anymore. I seriously don't know where i wanna be and wht i wanna do. Anyways back to the trip the reason i really wanted to go for this trip was cos i'd get to see my brother. See but the thing is things don't always go the way we expect them to. I felt such a disconnect with him that i can't even tell u. I don't know maybe distance plays its part and affects every relationship. But he was bondin well with my sis it was jus me. I was so frustrated i jus didn't know how to reach out to him. And he was with us only for 4 days. I think on the last day i jus gave up. I jus kept cryin the whole time on the day he was leavin. And honestly it was not cos he was leavin i hav gotten use to life without him now it was cos i cudn't believe we had grown apart so much....
The good part of this trip was i got to spend time with my maasi. I think i hav always had a special bond with her. I have always been her favorite. infact when she gave gave sum attention to my sis i kinda felt a lil jealous. She's the one who gave me my name and she the only person on this planet who calls me Simu. Jus the way she says Simu makes me feel luved. She's the most easy goin person i hav ever known. She's always had health problems but when u meet her trust me when i say this u'd think she the happiest person on this planet. I think its cos of her health problems that she appreciates life better than any of us. She's also very easy to talk to infact sumtimes i wish my own mother was more like her. Though she was not keepin well when we visited he she tried to show us around as much as she cud. A couple of days after i got back i felt really low. I got this feelin that sumthin was wrong with sum1 i luv and jus cudn't stop cryin ( i cry at the drop of a hat, i can be super sensitive sumtimes). Initially i felt maybe i was my hormones that were at it again but the feelin jus grew stronger. I had one of the most restless nights i hav ever had and the next morning we got a call from maasi. The doctors said she might hav Leukemia. She has 2 small kids yaar how can God do this. Initially i was really mad at God but now i have a feelin that everythings gonna be alrite..
By the way i hav started eating non veg again. Basically i had this wish and i thought i am gonna start once it comes true and after three long years it almost has ( I know this sounds so stupid ). But now eatin non veg makes me feel guilty now so i think i am gonna stop eatin it again. Also one of my really good friends has fallen for my best friend and now everythings a mess. Cos ever since he's told her they hav been fighting and i am stuck in between. And considering the lack of time in my life i just don't hav the time to sort things out between them. Trust me people if there's anything i hav learned from my own experience and those of people around me never date or even fal for a good friend if u want that person to always be a part of your life. Cos if there's even a 0.0001 % chance of it not workin out then its not worth loosin a friend.
Ok ppl so long for now gotta get bak to work, until next time Aasta Lavesta baby!!
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