Friday, August 22, 2008

Trying hard to be a better human being

I am back from another vacation. I know u must be thinkin she's on vacation all the time well wat can i say i guess i hav been travellin a lot this year . Anyways the long weekend gave me a chance to visit Ahemadabad. But this trip was for educational purposes. I had always wanted to experience student life in a hostel. So when i got the opportunity to go to MICA for a couple of days i just cudn't let it go...

I must say the city of
Ahemadabad is full of temples and mosques. I always prefer to explore a city on foot and thats exactly wat i tried to do but my classmates were not really into the whole walking thing. When we reached Ahemadabad we were told that "its been raining here for the past four days" but during my stay there it didn't even rain once and it got really hot and humid. Hell the tan that i got is worse than the one i had when i got bak from Goa. The old and the new city are connected by various bridges. The old city is really crowded while the new city is more quite and cleaner. I actually really liked the new city cos that's where we were staying and if it wasn't for my not so gr8 experience on my last day in Ahemadabad I wud hav luved the place even more. I must say i felt kinda ignorant cos i wasn't really expecting the infrastructure there to be as developed as it turned out. Even the people out there were pretty modern and i luved the fact that it was a safe place for girls so that they cud stay out late.

People in
Ahemadabad luv food. Every nook and corner of the city has a restaurant or a food stall. And the food there is pretty cheap as compared to what we get in Mumbai. I must say i didn't find a single empty restaurant out there. I saw so much food in Ahemadabad that by the time we came bak i cud just puke at the sight of food. And they put soooo much shudya ghee in everything baap re! No wonder most gujju's are fat. I visited the Akshyadham temple in Gandhinagar and i jus fell in luv with the place. U can actually spend a whole day there but i didn't hav enough time so i missed the exhibitions. Now i can't wait to see the one in Delhi. One of my favorite places in Ahemadabad was the Hatheesingh temple. There we 50 small temples inside this one temple.

I know i am gonna sound like a geek but i hav to say that my most fav place in
Ahemadabad was IIM A. I went there with 2 of my classmates and all three of us were in awe of that place man. The library there was soo bloody huge. I had this huge smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach the whole time i was there. I don't know just visitin a place like that makes u feel like man there is so much i hav yet to accomplish in life.

On the day we were supposed to leave a curfew was declared in the city. There were sum shoot outs in the old city and unfortunately for us were were visitin a mosque there. The situation was really chaotic and again it made me feel how unsafe our country has gotten.

This trip also gave me the chance to interact with students from different MBA colleges from all over the country and one thing that it made me realize was that just because sumbody is from an IIM or an ISB doesn't mean that they are smarter or better than us. Infact i was kinda let down, i kinda expected students from these institutes to be super smart with amazin ideas and presentation skills. Also i met a couple of really sweet guys, u know the bhola bhala kind who are sho sweet and innocent. I didn't think people like those still existed. Atleast they don't in Mumbai. I think this city makes people ruthless. People don't care about anybody here. I mean how many time have u walked past a man lying on the road or the station platform without even giving it a 2nd thot. Countless i am guessing. And i am not blaming u, hell i am one of them....

I miss being in a relationship sumtimes. I miss havin sum1 to talk 2 when i get bak home really late and exhausted. I think what i miss the most is being able to say i luv u b4 i go to sleep. Its so liberating when u can express yourself freely. I think i miss that. But i doubt i'll even be able to do that again. I think i am gonna be supper hesitant about expressin myself in the future. Do u ever feel like u were a better person when i u were younger? i do all the time. You know that innocence and the purity of heart and a clear conscious, i don't think i have it in me any more. Sumtimes i look bak at the things i did in the past and wonder how i had the heart to do them. I don't think i hav that feelin of unconditional love for people around me either. In case u r wondering wat happened to me? Life did.
I try everyday to be a better human being but sumhow it just doesn't feel good enough.

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