I am scared......and it feels gr8 to finally admit it to myself!

I am exhausted rite now but i have to share this with people b4 this thought leaves my head. Last nite in my sleep I ended up gettin the answer to a question that has been lingering in my mind for quite sumtime now. I finally figured out why people stay in relationships that rn't workin or they rn't really into. Well earlier i thot it was b'coz people jus get use to each other and then they think its too much of a pain to give up the comfort of sumbody who knows u so well. But i was wrong, the actual reason is that people are scared.
Scared of Wat? Well sacred of being alone i think. Its the fear that wat if i don't fall in luv again? Wat if i dont feel this way about sumbody ever again? Wat if i can't find sum1 who will care this way about me again? Luv, companionship, understanding, compatibility these are very difficult things to find. And if u find it with sum1 u just dont wanna give it up cos Wat if this is the last time u r findin it ever?

I read this sumwhere that it is only natural to have fear, we all have fears but a courageous person is one who still goes ahead and does wat he fears.

Though we all might fear not findin luv again, i jus hope that people who are scared to tell the person they are with that they arn't really into them do so cos its not fair to either of them. Conquer your fears and do the rite thing cos if u dont then both of u will end up being bitter at the end of it all.

I am scared that i am not gonna fall i luv again and it scares the shit out of me. Though i hav always thot of myself as a loner but i dont want to be alone 4ever. I am not really ready to be in a relationship just yet but i hope that when i am i will find sum1. I hav always thot that relationships are purely about timing. U might end up meeting the person u r most compatible with and not decide to be with them cos u jus arnt i that place in your life. But then u may end up with sumbody with whom u really hav to try to work things out but u dont mind. U know y? Cos u r ready to be in a relationship then and u feel the need to have sumbody. I personally hav never really believed in luv at firt sight or the whole soulmates crap. I think every relationship needs to be worked on & the two people involved shud just be really willing to do that. Only then does a relationship work.

I am finally beginning to trust people and its not goin bad at all actually. Its kinda weird though for sum reason.