Who am i ?

I soooo shudn't be writin a blog rite now ( exams startin in a couple of days) but then wat the heck.
Well this thot jus occurred to me the other day that if i die tomm my biggest regret wud be that i really didn't serve my purpose on this planet. I didn't really do anythin to make this planet a better place to live in...

But then wat really is my purpose and how do i make difference? Honestly i am clueless. But this excuse isn't good enough any more. I hav been gettin this strong urge to start workin on sumthin that i really believe in for sumtime now. I think i have wasted enough time on piety things in life already. I mean when u cum to think of it all that time we hav wasted on stupid relationships,etc. etc..in the end it doesn't even matter wat matters is did we make a difference, did we do anything to that we'll be remembered for when we die. I don't know about u but i sure havnt done anything like that as yet. And that sux bigtime!!

There is no guarantee that even after this realization i'll end doin sumthing cos i think most of us who want to make a difference end up gettin caught sumwhere in this web of a materialistic world that surrounds us. And thats sad.

For me i think before i realize wats my purpose i need to figure out who i really am and wat do i really want from life. I hav changed a lot in this last one year. Some of the changes hav been good and some bad. I hav lost my innocence forever. And i dont hav the ability to trust people easily either. I think for me it was easy to get over the broken relationship wat was hard to get over were the after effect of it. I hated the fact that i had changed as person cos of it. And no matter how hard i tried i cudn't go bak to being the same old me. But its only now that i hav realised that the changes were also cos i was growing old. I am no longer a girl, i am a young women today. I think i hav matured as a person as well. And these factors hav definetly contributed to bring about changes in me. I wonder i i'll ever figure myself out completely. To find your purpose its important to know who u really are. We are all on this journey of self discovery in a way aren't we? I jus hope i reach there before its too late....