LOST!!!

I believe that there are two kinds of luv that we experience in our lives. The first one is the luv that we hav 4 people around us and the 2nd one is the luv for wat we do. But every1 isn't fortunate enough to to get both in a single lifetime And if sum1 does well then he's a lucky bastard!! I have been in place in my life where i hated what i was doin so luv for wat i do is very very important for me. Infact rite now i think thats the only luv that i hav in my life and trust me when i say this I am so grateful for it. I think when u luv and enjoy wat u do then the passion that u feel is jus amazin. I mean u cud be workin your ass of but it won't like it at all. I think thats the key - it shudn't feel like work at all. Now cums the sad part...my colls not goin that well. The next sem has just started and its gonna take sum time as usual to gain momentum. But I am just super bored of not doin anything. Plus the subjects that i hav this sem are kinda ridiculous. I don't wanna study EVS, i mean hav't we done that in school already. So anyways with not much happenin in coll i pretty much hav nuthin to do and my life just feels empty. I mean this is all i hav got. Its not like i hav a personal life anymore. The man fast has been over for a while now and i can't even get myself to hav a crush. Seriously i can't even remember the last time i had one. Maybe i hav just past that age when u hav those stupid crushes. But still sumthing wud be nice its like the opposite sex just repels me. I think the idiom " Once bitten twice shy " is just so apt in my case.

This song by Coldplay describes my state of mind better than i even i cud hav-

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off