There's this thing I had wished for sumtime back and I thot if it came true I'd get sadistic pleasure out of it....well it did cum true and guess what? When I found out I felt the exact opposite of pleasure. I felt like pain in the purest form possible. It felt like sumbody just slammed a hammer over my porcelain heart. I am just so mad rite now I hav no words to describe it. I guess all wounds heal with time and so will this one. And God if u are listening - This is soo not fair and u know it ! I just soo wanna get goin with my life now. I have done everything within my power to make sure that happens. I read sumwhere that u get what u deserve and I soooo deserve this.........unless u are holding sum of my last life's sins against me. I wanna be able to live without having to ever thinkin about this again...its none of my business anyways. I don't want any of those useless dreams either, they just mess with my head. I think I am good without them. U have always been there with me and I really need u rite now.
P.S- I wish I had one of those boxing thingy's where u can just beat the shit out of it, I just need sumthing 2 vent my frustrations rite now;-(
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