So much has happened since I last wrote I don't even know where to start from. U know how u always have a thing that u'd wanna do once in ur lifetime but sumhow at the bak of ur mind u kinda know that u are never gonna do it. I kinda got around to doin one of those things.............. Its almost like bungee jumping ur excited about it on the way to the sight but once u reach there and look down a part of u feels like turnin around and goin bak. But I am not gonna do that atleast not now, I am shit scared no doubt but I am still gonna do it or atleat try 2 do it.
You try to run away from sumthing and u r so sick and tired of it that u try to run away as far away from it as u can and just when u think that u can relax now cos its way behind u turn around and its staring u rite in the face ( in my case in the form of a child ) which is even worse cos u obviously can't shoo a child away. I know I am not really making any sense rite now but trust me I am.....
If sumbody ever asked me at wat age did I start feelin old like aged old i'd say 24. I hve been feelin old since the exact day I turned 24. I mean as if the black spots on my face weren't bad enough I discovered a bunch of grey hair:-( and then recently injured my shoulder while I was liftin weights (which by the way is hurtin like shit even as I am writin this blog). Also I am gettin super depressed about the fact that I am the only single girl in my family now (my younger sis doesn't really count cos well I won't let her date). I mean seriously god are u kiddin me no job, no boyfriend and an almost broken shoulder. You gotta u cut me sum slack here. I mean everything else is ok BUT health is wealth yaar.
Talkin about God recently I have cum across sum people with seriosly extremist religious sentiments. Personally I am not very religious but I am very spiritual. I believe in God from within and I strongly belieive that on sum levels religion divides people. And I don't support that. I mean seriously live and let live. God is not about following a certain set of rules and forcin other's to do the same he's about livin a good life and being a good human being.
I recently read The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho , now honestly nuthin really matches up to The Alchemist cos books like those don't cum along often but it was a decent book. There are sum parts of the book which I cud completely relate with. The main protaganist in the book Athena has been described as sum1 who's not content with life. For sum people a decent career, fallin in luv and raisin a family isn't enough infact its kinda boring. They seek more challenges and hence in sum way or the other they purposely complicate their own lives as well as of those around them. I think I am one of those people. I honestly don't know whether its a good thing or not. There was a time in my life when I was so content with what I had that I cudn't hav asked for anything more but now its just the complete opposite. I think I am a restless soul who's intentiionallly seeking chaos cos in sum weird way it makes life more interesting.
Ok gotta go sleep now I guess I'll be writin more often now cos there's no Guddu here to talk with anymore. Man I miss her ok I am not gonna write any more cos its makin me a lil homesick.......
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