I havn't had a day off in the middle of the week in months and this truly is a luxury for me....for once
I have a day off and I don't ave to worry about doin the laundry or cleaning the kitchen or vacuuming my room.......all thanx to the snow storm:)
So I went to this Bday dinner of a colleague of mine a couple of weeks bak and she had all her high school friends there....I think I was the only "new friend" around. Now I am a chatty person so I don't really have a hard time makin small talk and the weather in this country is always worth talkin about....lol! But unfortunately for me I was seated next to a baby who was busy napping away and the Bday Girl who was busy entertaining. Needless to say I was bored to death cos the couple sittin across was well busy being a couple and the entire time I was just literally thinkin in my head "THIS WAS SUCH A BAD IDEA"......and thats not all. Just being there and seeing people who have known each other for ages interact made me realize that I don't have that anymore. I have no clue when I am gonna hang out with my childhood friends like that ever again......that entire evening spiraled into me getting super homesick and missin my friends like crazy for the days that followed. I think I din't realize how much I missed them until that nite...
I don't make friends that easily atleast not good friends .......it takes me forever to let people in and let them see the real me. I can easily say that a lota people I have known for years actually don't know me at all. But I do make a good friend atleast I think so......and I luv my friends to death. They are as important to me as my family, if not more...I know a lota people who have different best friends in every phase of their life, I on the other hand have had the same ones every since I understood what the term best friend means..... I am so grateful and blessed to have them in my life. I think my friends are truly one of my biggest strength and my greatest achievement. I have been blessed to have known such strong women that its only natural that some their confidence and strong will has rubbed off on me...
Everyone has their own fundas about the kinda friends they have.....I just cannot have the JUST HANGING OUT type friends, its just not who I am. If we are not the kinda friends that are there for each other then I don't wanna hang out with u and waste my time.....I wud rather spend it with people who matter.
Its not like I don't make new friends anymore, its just that in today's day and age very few make the effort to stick along. I just wanna thank every single person who I call my friend today cos all of them, have played a major part in helpin me become the person that I am today....some more than the others.
I wanna thank my darling Neha for always being there to give me a hug when I need one. For tellin me that I am the prettiest and I cannot give up on findin love in life cos there is sum1 amazing out there. For not giving up on me even when I refused to talk to her......for teaching me how to wear kajal, for gettin me all obsessed with hand bags, for teachin me how to fight with auto rickshaw wala's when they rig their meters, for plannin the trip to Goa and forcing me to come, for goin to clubs with me even though she hates them, for always being the sober one when I got drunk, for being the confident and the ambitious person that she is and teachin me not to settle for anything but the best in life. I love u a lot and I know I am not very expressive as a person but u mean the world to me and life truly sux when we fight...u deserve the best in life and I have faith that u will get it:)
If there is one person who understands my need to travel and my leaving home and cumin here that is Suhani. She is the one person I know I can call anywhere and anytime when I am in trouble and I know she'll be there. I think she is sum1 who has stood by me like a rock through my worse times and my heart is filled with gratitude everytime I think of her. There is always this one person in your life that helps you accept who you really are and for me that person has been Suhani. I wanna thank Suhani for supportin me when I had to take tough decisions in life, for understanding me and my passion for my career, for hearing me crib about my break ups, for being there every single time I fought with my parents, for makin me realize that I need to be emotionally independent, for introducing me to my favorite food -Momo's, for helping me rediscover my love for reading, for getting me gifts everytime she went out of town (I still carry around the good luck charm she got me), for paying the bill those zillion times when I had no money, for lending me money to buy college forms, for never letting me give up. You are an amazing friend and I know for sure that I wudn't be the person that I am had u not been there..SO THANK YOU:)
When I need sum1 to be brutally honest with me I go to my friend Shaista, cos she always and I mean ALWAYS tells me wat I need to hear & not wat I want to hear. She's always got my bak and I know she's looking out for me no matter wat and I love her for that. Though we have been living apart for the last couple of years she has always been just a phone call away and the best thing is we can start off just where we left everytime we talk......Its almost as if she never left. She's the one with all the practical advice and wisdom in the world and yet there is somthing naive about her which I totally adore. She has done more with the little resources that she had than any of us are even capable of.....definitely one of the strongest women I have ever known. She's not afraid to be politically incorrect and she's the one who taugh me that life is about livin for yourself and not tryin to please everyone around you and I am truly grateful for that. I wanna thank Shaista for being the glue that holds us all together, for teaching me how to use the computer, for making my very first email Id, for having the biggest heart, for being honest and tellin me - I don't think he's the one for u, for teachin me about the birds and the bees, for forcing me to buy a push up bra, for bringing out my feminine side, for not getting mad at me when I wasn't there for her during her weddin, for being so proud of me when I dressed up for her reception, for being an amazing listener and tellin me things will work out eventually and for being one of the most optimistic person I have ever met. I love u and I know that we'll always be friends no matter what:)
Its amazing to have friends in life who u can count on. I once heard this in Oprah (I am a big fan) that by the time u are forty if u have just one friend who u can call in the middle of the nite then u have truly lived ur life. I have been blessed to have more than one such friend and I am grateful to God for every single on of them...
They say that- Nuthing is as therapeutic as a good long talk with a few old friends.....And I a really believe it:)
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