The Pursuit of Happiness

The Pursuit of Happiness is actually one of my favorite movies and every time I watch this movie I learn something new. I think all of us are in the pursuit to find happiness and I am no different. So what makes my journey more important than yours. Well its MINE!!

If u hav seen the movie u'd know that Will Smith's character describes every phase of his life with a name. So if I had to do the same and describe this part of my life that I am livin rite now, I'd say this part of my life is called " The Struggle". U know how they say that if u work hard it always pays off in the end. Well the work part is almost over but there's no sign of the pay off. I have worked my ass off in the last 2 years. I focused all my energies on this one thing. Hell I even chose not to have a personal life at all cos I didn't want any distractions not until my MBA was done. And when I had the option to choose between hanging out with my friends or work, I always chose work. Not to mention that half of my friends are pissed at me now. The point is I had my priorities set. But wats the point?

I'd like to think this part of my life is similar to the part where Will Smith & his son get homeless. I am just exhausted and every inch of me wants to give up. But I won't cos there's a voice inside which says just hang on a little longer its gonna be alright. I just hope there's a happy endin to my story just like the movie. Cos this is all I have. Rite now my career (which means the world to me) is goin down the drain, I don't have a boyfriend and from the looks of it I am not gonna hav one at least not in the near future. And if that wasn't bad enough my parents hav gotten so desperate to get me married they even put up my profile on sum marriage portal (I think I'll have 2 a write a separate blog on this entire episode which by the way was super hilarious- in the end I hacked the account and deleted it,). So basically life sux rite now. The only ray of hope in my life these days are my college assignments and my exams which are cumin up soon. Theses things keep me busy and distracted. But even a few seconds of being idle just frustrate the hell out of me. I mean if I hav to choose between not doin anything and workin all night I'd choose the latter any day. I am a workaholic and won't even bother denying it. I like havin sumthin 2 work towards, I like beein busy...

I absolutely luv the part of the movie when Will Smith gets the internship and and he starts almost hoppin on the street and says " this part of my life this little part here is called happiness". Weird na, we spend more time in the pursuit of happiness than experiencing happniess itself.

I read this thing sumtime bak and I absolutely luved it, "I am a tough girl whose super ambitious and i know what I want. If that makes me a bitch then be it. At least I am not in denial".
I am gonna end this blog with this hymn that was in the movie The Pursuit of Happiness. Every time I hear it I have tears in my eyes. This is my plea to God cos I just want him 2 help me get past this phase..

Oh Lord You Don'T Have To Move The Mountain
But Give Me The Strength To Climb
And Lord, Don'T Take Away My Stumbling Blocks
But Lead Me All Around