Life in 2010

Have been super busy the last couple of days, can't believe its gonna be 6 months in a couple of days.....its like time just flew man!! Beginning to feel super homesick...I miss my sis soooo much. And I hate cumin back to an empty home. I think I have been soo obsessed with my career the last couple of years ...its almost as if no1 else mattered and no1's feelin are important but my own. I recently heard this sumwhere and it hit me like a bulls eye super bang on, "Wat u do wid ur life is jus 1 half of the equation, the other half the more imp half is who u are wid when u are doin it"

So maybe I am doin a lota things I wanted to do in life but the truth of the matter is no1 I luv is around me to witness it or even celebrate it with me.......... I don't regret my decision at all cos I had to do this, I didn't wanna spend the rest of my wonderin how my life wud have been had I done sumthing like this but sumtimes I do wonder if its worth not bein able to watch my sis grow into an awesome human being......All this while I felt like I can't leave her cos she needs me but the truth is I think I need her to give my existence a meaning and a purpose. She's doin fine .....its me who's always a mess. I am not unhappy I just miss my family A LOT!!

I think this was the 1st New Year in years which I spent without my best friends.....it felt super awkward without them....I was soo not myself . I am usually the 1st person to go all gaga about how I want to celebrate the New Year. But this year I was soo tired my roommates almost had to drag me out of the house.....and the cold din't help either. Speakin of cold...I just wanna say that - I ABSOLUTELY HATE THE WINTERS!!!!!! I mean the whole seein the snowfall for the 1st time thing was a big deal ......and forward it to one month later, the site of snow just makes me mad now cos the cold gets worse, the roads get super slippery, I can't go running (one of my fav things to do one this planet) I can barely feel my toes, and I have to wear like three more layers which makes me look like an over stuffed animal!!!!!! I have to admit tho I luv Boots, my legs look longer in them...lol!!!!

I am 25 and I have absolutely no clue where life's gonna take me......I shud sooo start plannin things man (Which I absolutely hate). Its not like I am gettin any younger......but the whole idea of settling down just unsettles me to the core. I don't know if I am commitment phobic or I just don't wanna be vulnerable in life ever again or maybe I just havn't met the rite person yet........I just can't imagine myself stayin in one place or being with one person forEVER! Life's too short and there's soo much to see and do in the world - for that. GOD help my parents cos I am the worse child ever.....they wanna see me all happy and settled but I seriously can't get myself to agree to do that. I get more male attention than I need but seriously I havn't met a single guy who can hold my attention for more than 5 mins.....by the way its one thing when desi guys chek u out but its super flatterin when a firang guy chek's u out ...Ya ok I am a racist bitch sue mee ;(

SO one person that I really miss is a childhood friend of mine who's always stood by me no matter wat......and New York is sooo the place for her cos she's super arty and I think she's the only person on this planet who I know will enjoy the museums and the galleries in New York .....my brother was here for the holidays and I tried to drag him to one of these places but in vain. The fact that the cold completely got to him and he refuses to cum & see me ever again even if I pay him is another story altogether....
Also she's the only one I know who actually cares about experiencing new cultures and I try and mail her abt stuff like that cos well nobody else really gives a crap abt it..........but this is my blog so I am gonna put stuff up here whether u like it or not- These are extracts abt the culture bit I mailed her sumtime bak....I am tooo lazy to type it all over again

" Oh god I have to tell u abt this place I went to in Brooklyn for an interview I stepped out of the Railway station and I felt like I was in Israel.......... noo kiddin!! Apparently only Hamish Jews (the ones who wear the hats) live in that part of the city and every single person on the street was wearin Black even the women (they had their own lil women cap thingys). Every billboard there was in Hebrew and even school buses had stuff written in Hebrew on them...can u believe it!!! I didn't know this but alomst 80% of world's jewish population that lives outside Israel is in New York and New Jersey. Half of New York is literally owned by Jews!! And they are such a close knit community almost like Gujjus every1 knows every1. I attended a Hanukkah party the other day at work........they had a rabbi cum in to preach and light the menorah and all. By the way Jewish food tastes a lil bit like Indian food and well the other stuff tastes like crap.....but I tried everything just for the heck of it!!

Also I recently met a Yugoslavian lady, must be around 65 aram se but she's sooo passionate about her work even at this age, has her own lil marketing firm which she runs in NY. She's doin everything she can to keep the business afloat. She was married to an Indian professor from Columbia University but he died......her son's now gone 2 India after finishing grad school to set up a business there. He owns sum factory in Chandigarh....cool na. U know wat I realized, evry1 wants to push themselves and see how it feels like to get out of there comfort zone.....just to test themselves and see if they can handle it."

See so there are things I like abot being here as well...lol!!

By the way my new place is pretty decent (touch-wood......Yes I have moved out of the American Slums slash Bug FARM) and the best part is I still live with my amazingly supportive roomates...the only problem is we've got the worse neighbors on this planet. Those freaks called the cops last nite and told them we were havin a party......the cops were super disappointed to see three chicks in their worn out pajamas (I am realizing rite now that this is makin me sound sooo uncool a party wud hav sounded soo much cooler na...lol!) I mean I can't help it If I am a loud mouth...its in my genes, its almost like a birth rite...I think my family will disown me if I stop being loud. BUT I swear I cannot move anymore I've forgettin the count of the no.of times I have moved in the last 6 months...its exhausting so for now I am put!!

Ok I have a confession to make I was a super bad sis when my brother was here..instead on me makin any delicacies for him I made him cook.....I think I must have cooked like once in the last 20 days (there's a reason why I keep sayin that I have awesome roomates...this being one of them). I was super busy and my cookin kinda stinks when I am tired....but this is soooooooo not a good enough reason so I promise the next time I see him I'll cook ek dum awesome food for him....ok lets not get ahead of ourselves here, I 'll try my best to cook edible food :)

Also I don't think I wanna eat Non- Veg any more I am soo much more happier and calmer when I am a Vegetarian..........OK thats it for now have loads of work to do, so Adios Amigos:)

P.S- I am soo totally hooked to tweeting these days...