I don't know how this happened but literally within 48 hours I have gone from luvin my life to being so pissed I cud so kick sum1's ass rite now just for the heck of it....
So lets start with the luvin my life part first cos well I have a short term memory and I don't wanna 4get that awesome day. So one of the company's that I am workin for is into Art Handling. For those who are wonderin wat the hell it is well google it! Anyways I was sittin in this meeting a couple of weeks back and every1 out there was admiring this ad campaign by a competitor and when I looked at it all I saw was a black background with a white circle on it which had sum stuff scribbled all over it. It turned out it was a very well known painting which I had no clue about cos well I am kinda Art Illiterate if I may say so....So any ways after that I decided to get a lil Arty cos well I don't wanna get fired and this weekend I got these tickets to this Art Event that we were sponsoring and I decided to go....It took me forever to get there for starters and I am still figurin out the whole subway trains thingy in New York so kind got lost but when I finally reached there - well lets just say the hours journey was sooo worth it. I think I have never missed Suhani more cos this is soo the kinda thing I'd end up goin with her.....Anyways saw sum super great stuff there and I thot I'd write about this stuff once I had my photgraphy blog up but I am tryin to use wordpress this time and I am still figuring it out so well wat the heck rite....Anyways I had an awesome time and on my way back as I walked past a window display and saw my reflection in it...and for the very first time ever I felt wow I luv my life. I hav always envied sum1 or the other for havin a better life than me but in that moment I felt like THIS IS what I've always wanted. I must say the awesome weather this weekend definetly lifted my spirits. Winter is finally getting over I am glad but I am also kinda sad cos well i just bought two pairs of boots which are pretty much gonna get wasted:(
So now gettin back to why I am soo pissed well I can't do the whole marriage thing I just can't I am tryin to be all cool about it but well I am faking it. I was hopin that if I pretend to want it I'll end up wanting it...well I was sooo wrong cos I just don't. I just cannot trust a guy ever again its beyond me and I am not capable of it so no point wasting my time on it. Nuthins even happened yet and I've already started feelin stuck and claustrophobic. People do it, good for them, I am just not one of those people. I know in the long run I'll regret it but rite now its not gonna happen.......Also I am just havin a super hard time gettin along with sum people and well its beginning to get on my nerves. I just wanna tell them--SCREWWWWWWW UUUUU ALLL!!!!! I feel so much better after typin that cos well I can't say it to their face, don't ask me why?
For those who are wonderin wats with the image, this was actually on of the displays at the exhibition (told u they had sum cool stuff) and is also my cells walllpaper these days....well thats hows mad I am rite now!!
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