So we are friends now, if u say so.......we are sooo NOT!! I sooo did not wanna do this cos its just makin me think of all those things I worked so hard to forget and now its bak like a ghost in my attic to haunt me again. A lot of time has passed and yes I am over it but u know wat somebody treatin me like shit will always be a big f***** deal. And if I let u bak in my life now I am sayin its ok to treat me like shit which is NOT!!! About u bein sorry, well 1st of all I never read the god damn word Sorry anywhere. And u know me its all about the word. No its not!!! I have learned to trust my instincts and they say u are not and u never were.......When sum1's sorry u just know that they are cos their conscious just doesn't let them live with it and they do watever it takes to hunt that person down and let that person know how sorry they are.....U are the reason I am a cynical untrusting bitch today (yes I believe in giving people all the credit that they deserve) and I generally don't trust any1 anymore. I don't think I am even capable of trusting u cos - Trust and Me, well we just don't get along anymore. I don't share my thots with any1 and people who matter aren't discussed with sum1 who doesn't. I am too guarded to do that.....So my friend I will never share anything wid u......so we won't really have anythin 2 talk abt
U just disappeared on me, do u know how shitty it feels when the 1st person u think of every morning and the last person u talk to every nite doesn't even acknowledge ur presence, do u hav any f***** clue how shitty it feels when u find out that the person u spend being hopelessly in luv wid for like 5 years din't take a week to get over u cos well "he had other options". U DON'T......when u left I was down in the dumps not cos of us I just was generally in life and if u were really a good friend u wud hav realized that and stuck around, but u din't. I worked hard and build a life for myself on my own without ever depending on anyone (cos u taught me not to ever depend on any1 ever again.....I told u I'll give u all the credit u deserve) and u know wat I am happy with where I am today (I mite not be so happy abt the person that I am...but thats not the point) so there is no way in hell I will get sucked in that world of ur's all over again and loose myself.....besides if u aren't there wid me in my crappy times then honestly I don't need u in my good times, that is my general funda in life and it applies to every1.............Also I soo do not wanna do the whole he said, she said thing which is soo bound to happen if we talk.
I don't know wat the hell is goin on with u, but u obviously must be goin thru a not so happy phase rite now cos honestly I can't think of any other reason why u'd wanna get in touch wid me. Watever it is u are goin thru u'll get over it OK, pls for once in ur life deal with stuff on ur own and don't seek sum1 to be there for u emotionally like always. U are a grown up now its high time u learn to be emotionally independent. We all have our low phases and we get through them and so will u, so just hang in there......deal with it on ur OWN. Trust me u don't wanna get to know the vindictive bitch that I have become today, its for ur own good. I'd rather prefer u remember me as the nice person that I was......but she's not here any more so u'll only get disappointed.
I don't think I am capable of sayin these things to ur face, no clue why so I am bloggin about it. And I am not very happy about it........if I mite add. I have asked u specifically not to read my blog but in case, just in case if u still are the jackass that u always were, u aren't really gonna listen and if that is the case then I just wanna say - I hope u lost sum weight......
P.S- How hard is it to say the word SORRY!!
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